I took this photo yesterday on the beach and it made me think of ‘Finisterre’ by David Whyte: https://onbeing.org/poetry/finisterre/
“but because now, you would find a different way to tread, / and because, through it all, part of you would still walk on, / no matter how, over the waves.”
If you’re looking for something to read that makes you say yes! that’s exactly it, you just put into words exactly how I felt – have a look at Whyte’s poetry.
One of my other favourites is ‘Sweet Darkness’.
“Sometimes it takes darkness and the sweet / confinement of your aloneness / to learn / anything or anyone / that does not bring you alive / is too small for you”.
Your world is so big and blue and beautiful. Go explore.